Jun 27, 2010

tunnels






Today I'm going to see one of the best Canadian indie rock bands. Arcade Fire will play near a water pond in Senate Square in Helsinki and I will be there. New songs from The Suburbs-album's singles' nearly took my breath away when I first heard some of them. Month of May is awesome.



girlish




Jun 26, 2010

oh sylvia

Sylvia Plath has been one of my favourite authors for a really long time. I don't even remember how I first found her breathtaking and fragile words. The Bell Jar is one of the most important books for me.

Not only because of the story I can definitely relate to, but because that book holds inside the covers a world that is totally different from ours but yet still so similar. The protagonist's mental illness (even depression or bipolar disorder) reminds very much Sylvia herself. This book is one of a kind.


This is one of my favourite parts of this novel. It's just so resplendent and explanatory.


I saw my life branching out before me like the green fig tree in the story. From the tip of every branch, like a fat purple fig, a wonderful future beckoned and winked. One fig was a husband and a happy home and children, and another fig was a famous poet and another fig was a brilliant professor, and another fig was Ee Gee, the amazing editor, and another fig was Europe and Africa and South America, and another fig was Constantin and Socrates and Attila and a pack of other lovers with queer names and offbeat professions, and another fig was an Olympic lady crew champion, and beyond and above these figs were many more figs I couldn't quite make out. I saw myself sitting in the crotch of this fig tree, starving to death, just because I couldn't make up my mind which of the figs I would choose. I wanted each and every one of them, but choosing one meant losing all the rest, and, as I sat there, unable to decide, the figs began to wrinkle and go black, and, one by one, they plopped to the ground at my feet.

~Sylvia Plath, The Bell Jar, Chapter 7




places i would love to live in






Jun 25, 2010

I got kissed. and I shoplifted! - Rory Gilmore


Lately I've been obsessed with Gilmore Girls. I can't believe I've never watched these episodes before. Something in this show is just so safe and comfy. Stars Hollow is another world and it's a world I would love to live in.

I just finished the first season and fell in love with Dean (and Rory).
I also drank incredible amounts of caffeine during the episodes, so I really consider that this is one of the most amazing TV-series ever. Finally I have a reason for my caffeine addiction. I'm just like Gilmores.

Looking forward for the next seasons too!


hexametric melodramas

It's midsummer now. Officially. All the people of this country are getting drunk and stupid somewhere thousands kilometres away from me. That's quite nice actually. The neighbourhood is as quiet and empty as it could be. Birds sing outside and I lie in the hammock and read Tove Jansson's Moominsummer Madness. A book about Moomins entering the wonderful world of theatre and performing Moominpappa's pompous hexametric melodrama.

One summer morning at sunrise a long time ago
I met a little girl with a book under her arm.
I asked her why she was out so early and
she answered that there were too many books and
far too little time. And there she was absolutely right.
- Tove Jansson

a small introduction


I don't know why I created this blog. Maybe because my life is now in a phase, where I have a chance to change my life totally. If I want to. And I'm pretty sure I want to change.

My ridiculous "phases" are always like this. I'm always deciding things quickly and forgettting those even quicker. But now I've decided. This is what I want, although my life is a complete mess.

This is a blog for my own inspiration. I will probably post here things I identify to.
Quotes, pictures, my own thoughts.
I guess I should introduce myself. But I don't have words for telling about myself.

Instead I'm like this, in the words of fabulous Marilyn Monroe:
I'm selfish, impatient, and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I'm out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best.